10/23 [11:52pm]
在為明天的崇拜作準備時, 媽媽找到了 以前在香港的教會時 我們常用的一本詩歌集… 隨手翻一翻我們就開始看著 結他的音標 “努力” 的試著清唱.  都是很久很久的詩歌 大部份都能從回憶中記起, 有些更是以前 曾是唱得不能再熟的讚美詩…  一首接一首喜樂的讚美, 緬懷過去, 從詩歌中得鼓勵, 也覺得我跟媽其實也在音樂上挺合得起來, 哈哈…   不知覺的過了一個多小時, 詩歌本翻到盡頭, 而媽要去睡了…  雖然我回到還在準備帶詩的當中, 但之前勞苦的心不再, 因為我看到了喜樂的泉源, 而 神是真正配得我們的讚美.  好了, 讓我好好作最後的準備後 早睡早起吧~

10/25 [12:59am]
週日的時間表雖然排的密密, 還有些勞累, 但 主賜給我有喜樂的泉源 — 從今天的信息中學會了…  金錢的用處.  金錢能在 衣,食,住,行上都可提供 豐富的物質享受, 但金錢所不能換取的是, 生命, 平安, 和喜樂.  失去了任何一個元素, 即便有再多的錢財也不能叫心得滿足… 眼皮不斷垂下, 唉, 還是明晚再寫吧, Zzzzz….

10/28 [12:28pm] 
Logged in at Friday lunch time (that’s odd), but don’t really know what I want to drop down.  After several days of silence, what’s in my mind?  Work, little plans for church and fellowships, then…  simply just want to be in idle mode…  It’s not stress, I’m sure, but what’s the cause of my recent lack of energy?  There seems to be too much noise that I have to sort them out one by one for clarity.  And at the same time, some worries come in but I couldn’t figure out why…  Is it because I’m less than what I think?  or is it because I’m afraid to lose out my plan, or even what I already have?  or something else that makes me feel insecure?…  Random thoughts came in as I am typing.  Anyhow, I should finish lunch and get back to work soon~  More later

10/29 [1:09am]
是今天累了吧, 還是警覺性降低, 從自己口中 一不小心說了不造就人的話, 在心裡重覆播放著說錯了的話, 在後悔中…  希望不要絆倒任何人 (其實想起來今天說了很多不合宜的話) 是該睡吧, 還是享受一下 Friday night 的電動呢?

10/31 [12:22am]
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慶祝 “南瓜”節當然要 對南瓜開刀啦…  其實這是刻上 神的樣式的美術挑戰.  看到我們花的心思可不少喔…  而你看到 神是誰嗎?  祂是愛, 是主, 是王, 也是為我們贖罪的羊…

以為 誤會的事可以告一段落, 其實一直都在加深…  感覺到怎樣說都好像是不清不楚, 被越來越多在教會裡的 看好是一對的, 唉… 只是週日接載的車子只有我, 才會多時很”順理成章”的成了指定的司機; 只是沒人願意先動手幫忙的, 我參與了就成為主動來配合流程, 怎料從攝影中我還是跟那個她被拍在一起?  有口難言, 也是怕說多錯多… 明白他人有心, 但是我真的沒意 (怎麼看, 怎麼相處就是不合), 而我也是意不在此…   不論是從電視或現實的情況中, 就會不時發生些類似的: 一個她喜歡了他, 但是他卻喜歡另一個她 (or vice versa)  雖然 感覺是沒有對錯, 但誰能說清 對感情的執著, 該到怎樣程度的堅持才算合適呢?  堅決的努力是否可以將 不合適的 變成般配的結果?  同時, 旁人不了解的看到”曖昧”, 往往就成了當事人的一份壓力… 

接受現狀? 我不想繼續被困於在這教會裡的關係誤會…  把事說明?  我有不想帶來任何傷害和破壞弟兄姊妹事奉的熱心…  我可以怎樣去妥善處理這事呢?  求 神開路~

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  1. it looks like you get that kind of “misunderstanding” all the time…. hehhehehe… maybe you should “not” do something. Pray that you will get thing straighten out soon. By the way, my test is over. It was a brutal experience. Now I can catch up with my friends. Do you want to hang out? I feel like I need to book three months in advance since you have so many things going on 😛

  2. @Mashi_Maro_GirlFriend – thanks for your comments and your prayers…   Haha, I actually don’t get this type of misunderstanding too much…   Misunderstanding like this one brought me stress, as some church ppl pre-assume this “match” and intentionally/unintentionally put me and “her” on serving, even on ride arrangements.  Sigh, but I believe God will make a way.  Meanwhile, what happened about the exam? Need more time to study or practice?  But take a break, relax, and it may not be as bad as you think (I got mine by God’s grace, totally, for I was expecting to fail two sections, if not all)  Sorry that I didn’t reply to your last comment. And yes, I could be a bit occupied on certain weeks, but we can hang out on some weekends. Lunch time only?  Or is dinner okay for you? Let me know~

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